summerdazed

Summer days are flowing along too fast for me.

Commercials on T.V. are already advertising sales on clothes and must haves for school. This is my second year being in this exact spot in time, all while waiting (not always so patiently) for the news that we might have been selected to go to committee for adoption.
How many of you are in this same predicament?
My hopes were to have a child/children by the time summer came along, so that we could have all summer to get to know one another, to form some type of bond prior to school starting. Last year, summer came and went in a daze. Then our hopes turned to “maybe before Thanksgiving?” but no kiddos, then on to ‘well, maybe by Christmas?”…still no kiddos.
This year rolled around and once again, I hoped and prayed fervently that our child would be with us before summer came. Tantalizing thoughts of camping trips and smores lay before me. Biking trips and day hikes. Trips to the zoo and fishing along the banks of Buena Vista ponds.
Yet, here I sit, with no child/kiddos.
My heart is ready. My home is ready. We are ready, already.
Summer is whizzing by in a daze.